2017 was the Worst Year of My Life

…which makes it the best.

How exactly does that work?

First off, let’s address the obvious.  I’m back!

I had to take a break from blogging for awhile to retreat inwards and really work on myself.  This past year involved the ending of an emotionally abusive relationship, a major professional disappointment, five months of bouncing around between the homes of generous friends and family while I was trying to find my way, being cut off from a family member who was once my greatest cheerleader, and the greatest struggle–living as one’s true self and as (my whole purpose in writing this blog) to live to 100% of my potential.

This year kicked my ass.

I have never been tested in the ways I was tested this year.

Here’s the old me, a little over a year ago:

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The good news is… I passed the test and came out stronger on the other side.

This is the 2018 version of me:

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You ain’t seen nothing yet.  In 2018, I’d like to introduce you to the best version of myself. You’ve never seen her before or maybe you have but only in glimpses.

Here’s the greatest lesson that I learned in 2017.  You can be mad about all of the disappointments or the ways you feel like people failed or wronged you.  You can sit in that bitterness and resentment for a long time.  Your whole life if you want to.  See where that gets you.

Instead, I choose gratitude.  I am grateful for every single challenge I faced in 2017.  I am grateful for every tear I cried (and there were WAY more in 2017 than usual) and every door that was slammed in my face.  Every rejection, every disappointment, every day of pain, I have nothing but gratitude in my heart for these things.  You can’t move forward in this life if you are only grateful for the good stuff.  You have to be grateful for the bad stuff too because that’s where you actually grow and learn.  That’s where you find out who you really are.

I hope this provides some explanation as to where I have been and why I’m now back.  I have big plans for 2018.  I hope you’ll join me on this journey.  For today, I just encourage you to practice gratitude.  Try thanking your pain and see how that feels.

I’ll see you tomorrow.

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